Why Me?
by Raymond Warren Bennett on 08/08/12
From the very beginning of my divine experience, I would often stop and ponder the question "Why me?' What makes me so special that the dear Lord would select me above all others to one day carry out such a significantly important task. Imagine being informed by the Blessed Mother that you would one day be responsible to reach out to the world and start the momentum towards world peace, and yet, at the time, you would be lucky to be even considered for next-to-last player choice in schoolyard games. Imagine often being insulted to keep quiet cause your opinions did not matter, or being told you would more than likely never amount to anything. How could that very same degraded child ever conceive that he would one day have the strength, courage and spiritual equipment to embark on such an unbelievable journey, not to mention be truly worthy of its honor.
Years passed by and I eventually moved on to experience and survive my childhood and teenage years, often stopping in thought along the way to once again ask that familiar question, "Why me?" The inclination to search for this puzzling answer continued on into my twenties and thirties. When I reached my forties, I found myself asking this question less and less, for it was during that timeframe that I began to receive the Blessed Mother's heavenly guidance that She assured me I would inherit one day. Guidance that would slowly prepare me for my future responsibility . . . divine guidance that would, in addition, provide the certainty of my calling and the answers to my questions.
In time I came to learn many things about my character that I was not fully aware of early on . . . character that would arm me with the necessary preparative tools to undertake such a feat. Could it be that the good Lord gifted me with such strong spiritual constitution, or could it be that the good Lord, in His ultimate wisdom, knew from the beginning what type of person I would turn out to be. After all, we were all given free will at birth to eventually make our own decisions, whether for right or wrong reasons. Perhaps I was chosen for the unwavering courage and devotion I would come to possess . . . devotion to the Lord and the Blessed Mother, to one day, against adversity, assist Them in Their plan for world peace. I would certainly like to think that, but perhaps I may never know the correct answer until the day I arrive in heaven for my permanent stay, but then again, when that day comes, I may not ask, "Why me?", for I will no longer be curious.
